Saturday, February 21, 2009

It is probably over.

I don't really know how to tell you this without coming across pathetic... (Which I really don't want to do, because I'm okay with this). I don't think Trinity and I will get back together. I know we won't get back together anytime soon. At the moment, and for a few days now, I have been okay with that. I can't beg for her to have me back if she doesn't want me, I can't force it. That wouldn't be a good grounds on which to try and rebuild our marriage.
So, for now, we go our separate ways... so to speak. We have our two amzaing, caring, beautiful children together, so our 8 years together was worth it. Trin has 'found herself' in the past 5 months and the transformation has been amazing. I'm sad that it took me leaving for her to have to do that, but there's no point speculating on whys and what ifs.
I have plenty left to offer my kids, Trin, my family, friends, you, and maybe even... a special someone.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

How do I approach this day?

Saturday 15th February, 2003

Today is my 6th Wedding anniversary.

Trinity hasn't mentioned it at all in recent times, I wonder if she'd be happy to see it come and go without a mention. I'm not sure I can do that though. I mean, my wedding day remains one of the best days of my life regardless of where we are at today. It has to be acknowledged... surely?!

Time will tell, it always does.

I'll let you know how it unfolds.

Anzac just ran into my room and jumped into bed with me. He is lying here hugging my arm as I write this. That's a pretty good start to any day I reckon.