Wednesday, December 31, 2008

2008... not my best one.

Okay, so just a few reflections on the year that was, the things I liked, the things I loved, the things that are best left in the past.

My greatest personal achievment was becoming a better person. In 2007 I argued daily, usually with people at work. Over the '07/'08 holidays I read '25 ways to win with people' and it literally changed my life. I went back to work at the start of '08 with a new attitude toward people, and the rewards were instant. I loved people I didn't previously like, I learnt about people I previously didn't care about, and people embraced me in return. I became someone people could trust, even with thier most personal thoughts. The culmination of this was to be voted runner-up in Kaisercraft's Employee of the Year award - second to my best mate Aaron. A year earlier, I would have been the last person people would have wanted to recieve that award. I was humbled by the honour.

I read about 30 last year, and I think my favourite book was probably '1984', the George Orwell novel that introduced the concept of 'Big Brother'. In fact I started it yesterday, so it just sneaks in for the '08 list. I have about 100 pages to go and so far it is just brilliant. Brilliant! I have read a couple of what are regarded as 'classics' of sorts this year (Catcher in the Rye, Breakfast at Tiffany's, Of Mice and Men, Alice in Wonderland) and none of them have really impressed me. So yesterday when I couldn't put 1984 down I was stoked to find a 'classic' that is actually a great book. Read it!

My kids continue, and will always continue, to be my greatest joy. Anzac is becoming a very special little boy. His heart is so good. His love for his sister is unbelievable, he shares, cares, hugs, loves... He learns new things every day which makes me so proud. Lola Pearl is the apple of my eye. I think the love a Dad has for his girl is that bit different to his love for a son. Lola is walking, playing, laughing and saying 'Daddy'. I can cry just thinking about how much I love my kids.

My seperation from Trinity is an on-going saddest part of 2008. Every day I spend every moment that I'm not otherwise distracted trying to work out my own head, trying to understand what I want in life, why I'm not with Trin, what I don't get from her that I think I need... I don't know so I'm not going to bang on about it here. Just trust me, it hurts.

There were a couple of goosebump moments in 2008. I love these, you know what I mean, when you are sitting there knowing you are experiencing history in the making. The first was the Apology. This was special. I have mentioned this one not because I have a huge emotional investment in it, but I listened to that day in Parliament know how important it was to the Aboriginal people and therefor how important it was for the nation. The other goosebump moment (and I just got goosebumps thinking about it) was sitting in my car listening to Barack Obama's acceptance speech following his election defeat of John McCain. The first few minutes of that speech will go down in history as some of the finest words ever spoken, I'm convinced of that. I have never had any fondest for America, or Americans as a whole, but when Obama won the election I think I did. 'Yes we can!'.

A few random bits and pieces (for better or worse, you work it out) was Geelong losing the Grand Final, opening the Kaisercraft outlet in 6 weeks, perfoming YMCA with the other guys in the leadership group at the Kaisercraft Christmas party, the passing of LeRoi Moore from the Dave Matthews Band, my friendship with Fi, snapping my achilles tendon, resnapping it 10 weeks later, MC'ing Kaisercraft's 100 to 1 scrap off, my 'second mum', Wendy Reynolds dying...

I'm glad 2008 is over, but I'm not convince 2009 will be any better. Time will tell.


jess said...

sounds like there has been some triunphs and tragedies for 2008....heres to a better 2009 Simon...keep your chin up...x

SkyeMJ said...

step back and take a look at this post - you've listed many more positives than negatives, so you obviously have a lot to be thankful for!
2 kids whom you adore, a job you love (and seem to be good at!), new friendships, not to mention a footy team with a premiership flag ;)
A lot of people only have small graces to get them by, but it seems to me, you have a few rather large pluses!
2009 will be what you make it, just live each day and be grateful. That's what I plan to do!
As for my NYE - I didn't do much, but I've ranted on enough here, I'll be posting on my blog later!
Take care of yourself!

sandra said...

Well said Skye! :)
Totally agree!
Keep applying all that you have learnt about becoming a better person and I am sure 2009 will be a brilliant year for you.. Such a great skill to pass on to your children.
You have so much going for you.
And I look forward to reading all about it on your blog!
(and thoughts with Trinity and the kids too.. I hope its a good year for all of you!)

Melissa Kennedy said...

From 2007 to 2008 you read a book and changed so much. 2009 as Skye said can be whatever you make it just take a day at a time - you have so much going for you, don't dwell on the negatives - we all have them. So here's hoping 2009 is HEAPS better than 2008 - it can be if you want it to. Im praying that it is.
Luv ya -xx-